DoYou Speak Cat?

Today Hannah and I took the dogs for a walk. While were out we saw a cat, Hannah said "meow", then she said "I wonder what I just said to that cat....I speak cat but I don't hear cat."

Happy Easter

Conversations (overheard in the car)

Joe: I have the biggest straw (drinking straw)

Hannah: No I have the biggest

Joe: Mine is bigger that the Universe

Hannah: well, mine is bigger than the tri state area!

Joe: Don't you know anything??? The Universe is way bigger than the tri state area!

I'm still here

When I go back and read my blog I feel so glad I've kept one. So, glad there's so much of my life in writing. Then I go through these dry spells where I can't think of anything to write about. I suppose I've been in a sort of funk.....which seems to be a trend with me. I've been struggling...with many things but mostly with me and who I am right now. I'm not happy with me. I need to make changes...again.....and I want the changes to stick this time! I want to be a stronger, healthier me. I want to be more organized and more happy, and I know those two things go hand in hand. I want to be a more spiritual woman. Sometimes I feel like a fake me....different on the outside than I am on the inside...and I wonder do others feel this way...do others have to feel so deeply and analize everything to death??

I was telling my sister (whom I miss so very very much) that I must have some seriously bad karma going on.....my trials seem more than I can take these past couple months. She, being the wonderful woman she is, assures me that I do not have bad karma. Then I look and I see that there are blessings...so many! My kids are healthy and happy...mostly :) We do not live on the streets, we are provided for. I have family who love me and care deeply for me.

Here's the other thing that's been oh so hard. My kids are growing up! They don't need me like they used to. I remember when they were so little and I was their world and now, I'm not. I know it's how it has to be and it's a good thing...but it's sad too, ya know? I still have little ones but I miss the big ones being little ones. Sometimes I feel bad for the littles....they don't have the young spunkier mommy the older ones had...I miss her too.

It's time to buck up and keep on keeping on....something that is truly hard for me sometimes.

Fear Not....

Reading the scriptures as a family has not always been our strength...but we are working on this. We are reading the Book of Mormon every night. Right now we are in 3Nephi. We are reading about the Gadianton Robbers and how the Nephites are praying to the Lord for help in defending themselves. When the Nephites see the Gadianton Robbers coming they fall to the ground in prayer...but the Gadianton Robbers believe the Nephites have fallen to the ground in fear. So, after we read about this we had a discussion about how we can pray when we are scared. Hannah is so notorious for never listening and living in her own little universe...so I looked at her and asked "what would you do if you were scared?" and she said "hide under my blanket!!".

Coming Soon

I am so excited!! Megan and Josh will be involved in North Star's production of BYE BYE BIRDIE. Opening night is the first Thursday in March. Josh will be Albert Peterson and Megan will be Mrs. Merkle. I can't wait to see it...I know it's going to be awesome. If you are in Lincoln the first weekend in March please plan on attending. There will be shows Thursday, Friday and two shows on Saturday. This is gonna be a fun one!!

Open to Interpretation

I work overnights in the ER. I am a patient registrar...which means I greet patients when they come to the ER....I get all their information, name, birthday, address, and then put all that in the computer....then later on, after they've seen the Dr....I get their insurance info and put that in the computer. I do other things too, but the main thing I do is register patients. I go to work at 1130pm and get off at 8am....so, I sleep during the day. That's the set up for the following.....

Today I was sleeping nice and soundly until I was startled awake by a blood curdling scream (my kids are still home for winter break). I then HAD to get up to go to the bathroom...which is so irritating really, it wakes me up too much and makes it so hard to go back to sleep! Today, I was lucky, I was able to go back to sleep (yay!) . I was again startled awake by another blood curdling scream (I figure I got a total of 6.5 hours of sleep, which is actually quite good for me....yay again!). Because I was startled from a good sound sleep, I remember my dream quite vividly. I was checking patients into the ER lots and lots of them...it was never ending. I remember the last one was a very tall, like 7 foot, very thin african american woman. She looked freaky in my dream, all big teeth and big bushy eyebrows. I was asking her name and she was standing very close to me as I typed in her name and for some reason we were standing by an indoor waterfall thing....anyway, she was standing way too close to me and I was very uncomfortable and when I asked her last name she said "REVOLUTION" and when I asked her first name she said "LITL' LIL". At this point I was jolted awake by said blood curdling scream. So, my question.....what the heck is that all about? Any good dream interpreters out there?

NEW YEAR'S EVE

We spent New Years Eve at home playing games and trying out new recipes. I made pepperoni casserole and roasted brussel sprouts for dinner. Megan made homemade reeses peanut butter "shapes". She made all kinds of skiwompus shapes...wish I'd taken a picture. That really should be my New Years Resolution...to take more pictures, but what they really are is to work on my spirituality and our finances. Anyway...we had a fun night...very low key.....it was nice.

We had fun reminiscing. We were laughing about how Megan could not hear the first couple years of her life and we had no idea! I told her "you would always come when I called" and Josh yelled "Mmmmmbbbbbllllleeeee". Lots of laughter. Megan was also telling me about a conversation she overheard a couple days ago.

Joe: I wish I had a lunch sack.

Hannah: (holding up my makeup bag) here you can have this when mom dies.

Here's to hoping 2012 brings our family and our loved ones many blessings...and hopefully Joe will get his own lunch sack and not inherit my make up bag.

Just Exactly when did the Tables Turn?

When my kids were little they would embarrass me. Especially Zack and Megan...don't know why these two in particular, but it's true. I suppose the reason Zack would embarrass me was because he was so curious. He wanted to know about everything and he wanted to know why. His FAVORITE thing to say was "cause why?" and to this day Aaron and I still ask each other this all the time....CAUSE WHY? And Megan, she was the girl who would blurt out whatever was on her mind at exactly the time it was on her mind. I can't tell you how many times I found myself back peddaling in conversations because of her "sharing" what she'd heard mommy say earlier....like I said, embarrassing. So, in the famous words of my father in-law "What I'd like to know" is....when did I start embarrassing my kids? Now that I know I have this power it's just way too much fun for me! I found that I'm especially embarrassing to my Megan....oh, the joy and rapture this brings me....I found this out recently when we were at the One Act District Competition and I asked her in the auditorium what she thought of one the high schools performances....she was so offended and told me under no circumstances would she engage in "that kind of conversation" with me.....I was litterally dumbstruck....yet, somewhat tickled. The next time we were in an autorium we were watching the Choir Concert at North Star. There was a kid there dressed in the tightest black shiny pants I've ever seen on a guy....all I had to do was just lean towards Megan and she was slapping at me and whispering "no, no, no!" she was ready to get up and walk out and I hadn't said a word! (insert evil laughter here.....)

technical difficulties

I'm having some technical difficulties with my backround. I've never ever had this problem and it's making me want to scrap this blog and start a new one. I don't know what the dealio is but will have to have a more technical person (Josh or Aaron) take a look at it and see what the heck!

I'm having other "technical diffictulties" in my life right now too. I try to keep things positive here in my blogisphere...so that's why I've not written much lately.