Saturday, October 23, 2010


The other morning I got off work and went straight home to pick up Joe for a dentist appointment. When he went out the front door he dropped his backpack on the front porch and started walking toward the van.

Me: Joe...get your backpack.


Me: Yes, I know, but then you are going to school.

(He got his backpack and stomped to the van and threw it in and sat down with in a huff)

Me: Boy, why are you in such a bad mood?


Wednesday, October 20, 2010

The Giver

Have you read this book? It's one of my all time favorites.....I have many. I read this several years ago when Zack had to read it for school. It's so thought provoking and just a good read!
Imagine my excitement when it was announced that North Star will be doing The Giver for their One Act Play this year. One Acts are a very big thing here in Nebraska. I wonder if they are anywhere else?? The kids compete at different festivals around our area and then they compete in a district competition and if they win at districts they go on to's all very exciting. Last year WE (North Star) won at STATE!! Aaron, Megan, Matthew and I were able to go and it was all so awesome!

It's been kind of a joke in our home that Zack is always cast as an old it's no surprise, but still so thrilling that he has been cast as The Giver!! I know he'll do such a great job!! Josh and Megan will be in the promises to be a great show! I truly can not wait to see it!!

Monday, October 18, 2010


Thanks to Nebraska Emergency Medicine we were able to go to Vala's Pumkin Patch for free! Unfortunately the older boys and dad were not able to attend with us. All in all it was a fun night...besides the fact that Joe was the most hyper I've ever seen him (and that is saying ALOT). At one point I looked over and he was doing the splits in front of some random women....when I called him over to me he told me he just had to show them. Then on the hayrack ride we (meaning the entire brood riding on our wagon) were serenaded by Joe to the lovely song by B.O.B. , have probably heard it....I could really use a wish right now a wish right now a wish right now..... Well, we all heard Joe's version of it. Matthew and Joe also fought the whole time......but when we got into the van to go home I had many thank you's and "that was the best night ever!" I guess it was a great success, even if it was rather stressful for me.
When we first got can already see that Joe was on one.

Joe having his hot dog.

Me and My Girl.

Megan was almost too cool to be seen with us.

Matthew and Joe roasting marshmallows.

Notice Joe's marshmallows are on fire...

I think he was pretty proud of those burned marshmallows.

The kids with Homer...for some reason my camera kept picking up every bit of dust in the air!

We saw cute!

Hannah and Joe rode trikes around a was hard to get them to leave this spot.

On the hayrack ride.

Hannah wearing the evidence of the yummy cotton candy.

Hannah found a pumpkin just the perfect size for rule, you have to be able to carry your own pumpkin....

Matthew found a good one.

Joe is about to give birth.....

To a beautiful bouncing baby...pumpkin!

Isn't it a BEAUT??!!

Everyone had a grand time....

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Something Happy

I had my fifth weigh in yesterday and I've lost a total of 12 lbs....YAY!

Friday, October 8, 2010


I haven't felt much like is just feeling so stressful to me and I feel like I'm failing in my mom duties. Working full time is hard....I miss just being a housewife and mother. I think my kids miss it too. I sometimes wonder if all this hullabaloo with Joseph is because of me, because I don't spend enough time with him. Hannah is so attached to me lately and anytime I leave the house without her when she's home (or awake) she clings to me and has to be pryed from my truly makes me feel so bad. I often wonder if my teens get enough time with me. I miss my family and friends. I miss being in a place where I have so many to lean on in hard times. I have been hating that I can't give my kids trips to New York with their drama department, or pay for their college or buy them backpacks or give them gas money. I've been hating that we don't have a nice house or live in a nice neighborhood or have nice things. I have been so sick of all the struggling.....I've just been so weary from all the stress. Then I read this quote the other day......

At the center of our agency is the freedom to form a healthy attitude toward whatever circumstances we are placed in!

Elder Neal A Maxwell
(thanks Michelle...I read this in the book you sent me)

And that was a moment for of those aha moments and it hit me that I needed to SNAP OUT OF IT! So, I'm going to try harder...I'm going to look for the good. I'm going to make a conscience effort to find happy moments and to laugh more. I'm going to be more friendly and stop isolating myself so much. I'm going to remember that "this too shall pass". I'm going to take more pictures and play more with my kids. I'm going to try my hardest to be "in the moment" and stop worrying so much....about the "what ifs". Life is hard but there's no reason why it can't be wonderful too.......