Sunday, June 7, 2009

Lately

I've been feeling so overwhelmed with life lately....like I'm treading the water and it keeps going right over my head. I've not ever been a great time manager. This past week was not one I wish to live over again! I forgot Matthew's fifth grade graduation and I wouldn't of been able to go anyway because work was crazy! I also forgot that Josh had High Adventure, for some reason I thought it was the week after Girl's Camp and it was really the week before girls camp. So, he's not going. I didn't get him in for a physical, and they are leaving tomorrow. I was truly heart broken that I dropped the ball on these two important things...so heartbroken that I've spent some time sobbing like I haven't sobbed in quite some time! To top off the week....Matthew's been sick for a couple days with some kind of stomach bug, poor boy. I have pink eye and I wrenched my back just picking up Hannah (she only weighs 30 lbs) and I got a sunburn at Josh's game yesterday. I know when things get so tough I need to hand it over the Lord. I struggle doing this...for some reason I just like to hold on to all the stress and keep it all inside wrapped in my heart in a tight little ball! How truly silly! So, my goal today is to let it go...let it all slide right out of me! I don't need it. I'm not a good mom or wife when I treasure my pain like this. Time to let the Lord take over. Time to let it go!

6 comments:

cafjeldsted said...

Arg! I just left a comment, but something weird happened with the computer... Brief summary: I have realized that my relationship with the Lord is strengthened when I rely on Him- it never fails!
Also, I would love to see you when you're here! In August, right? Erin's coming in September, but if you'll be here at the end of August, maybe she can just come sooner!

Michelle said...

I wish I was there with you, I would give you a hug. I hope you have a better week next week. Hang in there.

Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you.
Ps 55:22

Steph and Jeff said...

Oh, when you talk like that it makes me feel so sad. Maybe tomorrow you should post a joke to make me laugh!!! Hope things get better.

Lia said...

So sorry Kim!

Julie said...

We should've spent the week together, we could've cried together. Isn't it great that we know we can turn to the Lord? I don't know how I'd make it through without that.

Alisa said...

It's okay to cry and let some of it out. You're going through an awful lot right now. I'm thinking of you, and wishing you some better times to come soon!