Sunday, June 7, 2009
I've been feeling so overwhelmed with life lately....like I'm treading the water and it keeps going right over my head. I've not ever been a great time manager. This past week was not one I wish to live over again! I forgot Matthew's fifth grade graduation and I wouldn't of been able to go anyway because work was crazy! I also forgot that Josh had High Adventure, for some reason I thought it was the week after Girl's Camp and it was really the week before girls camp. So, he's not going. I didn't get him in for a physical, and they are leaving tomorrow. I was truly heart broken that I dropped the ball on these two important things...so heartbroken that I've spent some time sobbing like I haven't sobbed in quite some time! To top off the week....Matthew's been sick for a couple days with some kind of stomach bug, poor boy. I have pink eye and I wrenched my back just picking up Hannah (she only weighs 30 lbs) and I got a sunburn at Josh's game yesterday. I know when things get so tough I need to hand it over the Lord. I struggle doing this...for some reason I just like to hold on to all the stress and keep it all inside wrapped in my heart in a tight little ball! How truly silly! So, my goal today is to let it go...let it all slide right out of me! I don't need it. I'm not a good mom or wife when I treasure my pain like this. Time to let the Lord take over. Time to let it go!