Thursday, September 8, 2011

Hard

Joe can be hard. He has always been so full of energy. Sometimes I just like to remember when he was easier. He really struggles in school and at home. He gets so angry and very often there is little or no warning to when this anger will present itself. I know he feels bad about it afterwards. Today I was reading a note sent home about how his class gets to have show and tell on Friday and I said something like "oh, how cool! You get to have show and tell on Friday" and he just blew up and was yelling at me to stop talking about it. I was baffled, as I am quite often when he gets so upset. After a while he told me he was sorry. I'm still not quite sure why he was so mad and I don't think he knows either. These situations occur everyday all day long. He is working with counselors at school and we are working with him at home. I started volunteering in his classroom and it's interesting to see him there. He doesn't participate with big group activities....he knows it will set him off so he chooses to keep a distance. He still listens and follows along but he chooses to stay in his seat instead of sitting on the carpet with all the other kids...his teacher is okay with this and I'm glad but it also makes me feel so sad. I think every mother wants their child to fit in and I know he's "different". I worry for him and his future. Will he learn to control himself, will he be able to fit in when needed.....will he learn to see the bright side? I just love him so much. I want him to be successful in whatever he wants to do or be. I want him to be happy.


4 comments:

crazy burnett6 said...

Kim, I have been in your same shoes. I love to read about Joe, he makes me smile because he is EXACTLY how Braydon was at that age. every year has gotten better. Braydon's outbursts have increased greatly. Braydon still prefers to be by himself though, because others just get in the way of his thought process or what he is doing. It will get better but I do know exactly how you feel, it can be exhausting. I hope you have a good day!

Julie said...

I worry about Hunter,too, since he doesn't 'fit' the mold. One thing that helps is a bishop I had years ago. He told me how he had such a hard time growing up and was picked on mercilessly because he didn't fit in. Now, he's a successful businessman (and a former bishop) with a beautiful wife and family. There's always hope!

The Porter Family said...

I have no words of advice, but I can see what a great mother you are. You have so much love for him and have a strong desire for him to be happy!

Michelle S. said...

I love this picture of Joe.

He is wonderful!