Sunday, April 26, 2009

If you can't say something nice............

I remember this line from one of my favorite movies...it goes something like this...."I'm not crazy. I've just been a very bad mood for the past 40 years." That's how I've felt for the past week. I keep thinking I should blog...but I have nothing nice to say. Stress is rearing it's ugly head around here again. Aaron's work is very slow. Zack and Josh are lazy teen age sloths that seem to just have NO energy until it's time to go do something fun with friends. Half the time I feel like Megan despises me and if I have to endure one more eyeroll from her I may just cry. Matthew is actually doing well besides his constant fighting with his siblings...Joe is driving me nuts! He CAN NOT hold still even for one moment! Hannah is three....need I say more? Well....I will today she had a major screaming, crying melt down because Megan turned on a movie for her and she wanted "mommy" to do it. Then at church I realized I'm not doing all I should be doing and I went home feeling guilty and inadequate. I'm feeling guilty for working and sad that I'm not home with the kids and I can tell it's affecting them and our home but don't know what else to do. And then tonight we discovered that some lovely ant family has found a way into our house.......yay for us! See....this is why I haven't blogged...............don't say anything at all!

7 comments:

Julie said...

Dang! I'm sending a long distance hug. Seriously, I wish I were closer so we could go for a walk and you could vent. Teenagers are such a trial-who knew it would be this awful???? Hope this week is better!

Steph and Jeff said...

I'm so sorry that life has been so stressful. I wish that I could say that I know how you feel. I have really hard days but I only have two kids and you have 6 plus a job. We will pray for you to figure it out. Love you.

Lia said...

Sorry to hear things are a little bit less than ideal. So many people are being put through the refiners fire lately. Don't feel inadequate, no one is getting through this life perfectly and those that THINK they are are very much mistaken (and that's their biggest trial). Your kids are normal, don't stress about that. Keep pluggin' away. Your kids are doing so many things well, remember that when they are less than perfect. I've been thinking about you. So when life is hard remember that even though we're not close, your friend will buoy you up! But I know you know, you're never in this alone.
Sorry if I went on too much. :)

Kristi Amasio said...

I couldn't of said it better myself. I feel that way a lot of the time too. It's so hard to be a working mother! Somedays are just harder than others. Hope you have a good week. :)

~Sister Boogie Woman said...

I love you, Kim. So does Heavenly Father. He wants you to be happy, but He also knows it isn't easy. I love that you always take extra effort to be happy.

I sometimes have to think the YW theme to myself. I feel better when I remember who I am from an eternal perspective.

I love you.

Lara said...

You are great and never forget that. Your life is SO normal and we all go thru it. I 'love' being a stepMom to a teenager - that's the best. Followed closely by being a Mom to an almost teenager that tells me I'm no fun, always serious! And I say, WHATEVER!!! I'm proud of your honest blog! Never hold back!

Alisa said...

Sometimes it DOES seem like they will roll their eyes right out of their heads if they keep it up! I know how that feels! I keep telling my kids that I really AM a COOL Mom, even if they don't know it. :) Same for your kids. They are so lucky to have you. It will just take many years for them to realize it (unfortunately!) Hang in there- you're doing the best that you can, and what more COULD you do???? You're already doing so much!