Thursday, August 7, 2008

The Large 3-9

I had another birthday come and go. I was sick with this horrid cold I've been fighting for over two weeks now! It was just like any other day...nothing special. I'm 39 now...one more year til the BIG 4-0! Thanks to my friends for wishing me a happy birthday....it was so appreciated! I got the funniest card from my sister and a really good one from my dad too. I had the best chat with my sister in law, Michelle. My kids let me lay in bed finishing my book. Aaron got me a cool blue cover for my phone. I guess there were many special things about my day...I just needed to remember them.

I thought I'd take a few moments to write about my feelings on getting older. It's funny how I just don't feel that old. I remember when I thought 40 was old and now it doesn't seem all that old to me at all. I still feel young. There are tell tale signs of my age though...the wrinkles around my eyes and the wrinkles starting along the side of my face (I'm none too happy about that, by the way!!). I'm getting bunions on my feet...eeeuuuuwww! I have teenagers~! I'm getting more and more gray in my hair...(thank goodness for dye) :) There are some very good things that come along with age, though. Knowledge...hopefully. Wisdom..again with the hopefully. I like to think I've become less judgmental of others along my journey. If I said I wasn't a bit nervous or even scared of growing old I'd be lying. I worry about my health and hope I can stay healthy for my sake and my kids and grandkids sake. It scares me to think I may become a burden to my family one day. But all in all I just don't feel all that different than I did 20 years ago...I'm still me with all my strange idiosyncrasies...I'm still too sensitive (but I'm not as sensitive)....I still worry too much about what other people think of me (but not as much as I used to). I still avoid conflict but am more able to stand up for myself. Growing older isn't so bad. I look forward to the next 39 years!!

How old would you be if you didn't know how old you were? ~Satchel Paige

8 comments:

Jessica said...

Happy Birthday! Here's to continuing to feel young as we age, right? Some day, 60 isn't going to seem so old anymore either. How sad is that! :-)

Lia said...

You're as young as you feel, right? Does that mean some days I'm 50 and other days I'm 25? I'm with you though, I don't feel my age at all, then I look in the mirror and see the wrinkles and wonder "what the heck!" Good job keeping yourself healthy for the future!!

Greg and/or Angie said...

I love how you've focused the positive-not that 39 is bad or anything. I'm excited to get older in a lot of ways because I'm hoping to leave a lot of my weaknesses behind. Many of them were things you mentioned. You couldn't have said it better. Happy late Birthday!

Kristi Amasio said...

Kim you look fantastic for almost being 40. I would never think you were close to 40. Think of everything you've been able to accomplish by now. It's great. You have such a wonderful family and so I think it's okay to get older. I think my mom lives the good life. She gets to spoil her grandkids and then send them home. I'm kind of looking forward to that phase of life when it comes. Happy Birthday~!

Alisa said...

Loved the quote. Matt and I were talking about that phenomenon just this morning. I've come to the conclusion (whether it's accurate or not) that it must be because our spirits are eternal. So it's hard for them to comprehend that our physical bodies age in this life. Very weird to have the occasional (that's my story and I'm sticking to it!) grey hair, wrinkles, knees cracking, joints freezing in place after holding a position for very long, beginnings of the need for reading glasses, not to mention giving lectures that make me sound like my mother. Or teenagers that roll their eyes and tell me, "Duh, Mom. Like you know what I'm going through!" Oh, man. When and how did all this happen? :) Life's good. We must be on the right track if we have deja vu from the opposite side, right? :)

Better Home Interiors said...

Happy Birthday Kim! Getting older really freaks me out...the time just goes so fast. I feel like time passes in a blink of an eye. I guess thats why we need to enjoy the journey every day and not take things for granted!

Stacie said...

Happy Birthday! (belated that is)

Jacque said...

Hope your birthday was wonderful. It's weird to be getting older and have teenagers. Weren't we just teenagers yesterday?

You are a very wise person Kim. I enjoyed your blog!