I had another birthday come and go. I was sick with this horrid cold I've been fighting for over two weeks now! It was just like any other day...nothing special. I'm 39 now...one more year til the BIG 4-0! Thanks to my friends for wishing me a happy birthday....it was so appreciated! I got the funniest card from my sister and a really good one from my dad too. I had the best chat with my sister in law, Michelle. My kids let me lay in bed finishing my book. Aaron got me a cool blue cover for my phone. I guess there were many special things about my day...I just needed to remember them.
I thought I'd take a few moments to write about my feelings on getting older. It's funny how I just don't feel that old. I remember when I thought 40 was old and now it doesn't seem all that old to me at all. I still feel young. There are tell tale signs of my age though...the wrinkles around my eyes and the wrinkles starting along the side of my face (I'm none too happy about that, by the way!!). I'm getting bunions on my feet...eeeuuuuwww! I have teenagers~! I'm getting more and more gray in my hair...(thank goodness for dye) :) There are some very good things that come along with age, though. Knowledge...hopefully. Wisdom..again with the hopefully. I like to think I've become less judgmental of others along my journey. If I said I wasn't a bit nervous or even scared of growing old I'd be lying. I worry about my health and hope I can stay healthy for my sake and my kids and grandkids sake. It scares me to think I may become a burden to my family one day. But all in all I just don't feel all that different than I did 20 years ago...I'm still me with all my strange idiosyncrasies...I'm still too sensitive (but I'm not as sensitive)....I still worry too much about what other people think of me (but not as much as I used to). I still avoid conflict but am more able to stand up for myself. Growing older isn't so bad. I look forward to the next 39 years!!
How old would you be if you didn't know how old you were? ~Satchel Paige