some stuff

*I took three days off from work.  I'm feeling majorly burned out at work.  There is a lot of contention going on there and although a lot of it doesn't affect me directly it's still taking it's toll.  I feel so badly for my coworkers who are having to deal with the fall out of just a couple workers who refuse to do their jobs.  I feel frustrated that our boss does nothing to remedy this situation.  It really makes it so much harder to have to work...in my heart of hearts I want to be a stay at home mom and feel like working is ruining my mothering.  I don't know how to fix this.

*We've had three birthdays in the last while.  Matthew turned 14, Josh turned 18 and I turned 43.  I only took pictures of Matthew...I have slacked miserably in the picture department lately....I need to make a commitment to be better with that!  

*My nephew Zane stayed with us for over a month.  We always love having him and are so sad when it's time for him to go home.  I feel bad that we don't have the money to do more things when he's here....but my sister assures me that he has a good time anyway.

*School starts tomorrow.....although I like the freedom of having the kids home for the summer I know they are all ready to go back.  Josh starts college next week.  Megan is a junior now and Matthew is a freshman and will start high school!  Here's a very cool thing I learned yesterday.  They will be doing an early morning Seminary class at my kids high school!!  This is the best news!!  Aaron (because I'm at work) has to take them to the church, pick them up from the church and then take them to school...now he can just get up and take them to the school and be done with it, it's a huge load off him in the mornings....plus, it's easier for the kids too. Seminary for us starts at 6am.  Both Megan and Matthew have early morning classes so this works out so well for them.  Joe will start third grade and Hannah will start 1st grade.  They both got teachers they wanted.  Joe will have his second grade teacher as she moved up to 3rd and Hannah will have the same teacher Joe had for first grade...they are both thrilled and so am I.  

*I still struggle to make Nebraska my home.  I miss my family and friends so much and I miss my old life.  I need to move forward now that it's been 4 1/2 years.  I know in my heart that going back wont' fix my problems...in so many ways my life has just not turned out as I hoped it would....I'm struggling to get over that and be thankful for what I do have.  But, I'm trying....